Iâ€™m sitting here, knowing I have work to do, yet somehowâ€¦ Not doing any bloody work.
The problem is motivation. Iâ€™ve been in this job since the middle of June and, quite simply, have got out of it pretty much all there is to. When I have a big project or task to do, something to get my teeth into I am fine. More than fine â€“ I shine. I know I do â€“ the Energizer Bunnyâ€™s been more than liberal with his praises, extending what was meant to be a 2 week contract to near three months, and my last boss has seconded me for a week because apparently Iâ€™m “trust worthy and they know I will do a brilliant job”. But right now Iâ€™m home alone in the office, thereâ€™s no one to give me work, and itâ€™s just the little piddling things left to do. Iâ€™ve already done most of the filing and tidying up I can do on Monday thanks to the Big Network Crash. That leaves, hmmm – *goes to the To Do list*
- Email out an agenda. Not even write it, Iâ€™ve already done that. I just need to email it to a few people.
- Buy some vouchers as a prize for someone. This Iâ€™m saving for this afternoon when my back is ready to implode and I need a long walk to stretch it out.
- Write some copy for the Intranet and Website. Not interesting copy that I can stretch my creative muscles on either.
- Get a quote for a flag.
- Reorganise the filing in the training folder. And make sure all the files have a consistent labelling system.
All thrilling stuff I think you will agree.
Not that I expect any different in an admin role. My problem is that Iâ€™m reaching the end of the assignment. I finish working for the Energizer Bunny on the 7th, then the secondment ends on the 15th, and Iâ€™m off looking for pastures new. [[As an aside, it is a great birthday present â€“ Happy Birthday Cas, here, be unemployed!]] If I was going to be here for the end of the projects (October) then I could get invested. I wouldnâ€™t mind the niggly bits (so much) if this was going to be my team for more than a couple more weeks.
But itâ€™s not. Iâ€™m doing all this hard work and Iâ€™m not going to get the pay-off (other than my meagre pay-check of course). This is the life of a temp and I fully understand that. Right now though, I need another challenge. Iâ€™ve long known that I need to see projects through or I donâ€™t give them my all. I need to be interested in something, or I just donâ€™t do the work to the best of my ability. I coast. Ok, so my coasting is still good, but I know I could do better if I applied myself. I just canâ€™t seem to apply myself unless I am invested.
Time for me to find a full time job, isnâ€™t it?
Oh, I missed something off the earlier list â€“
Oggle Mr Tall, Dark, and Great Smile.
So thatâ€™s not strictly a task I have to do, but itâ€™s so much fun.