It’s been a bad week.

I’ve felt too manky to exercise. I’ve not been eating properly at all: just a couple of bits of toast for breakfast; a salad or a sandwich for lunch; and a snack (more toast or maybe a bit of pasta) for tea. And I scoffed two Magnum ice-creams at the weekend *guilty*

It’s kind of a cycle actually - feel too rough to exercise and eat properly, but not eating properly and failing to exercise in turn makes you feel rough. Might bully myself into going to the gym tomorrow as a kind of tester to see if it is just apathy or something more. (I want it to be apathy because that’s easier to overcome than some of the alternatives!)

I’m not sure what’s wrong with me but I am just bone tired - I actually fell asleep at my desk for a few moments at work today. I’m hoping it’s just because I’ve been working hard, haven’t had a break since April, and having been fighting off a cold/virus/something evil for the past couple of weeks. If that’s all it is, the few days holiday I have booked for this Thursday and Friday should set me back on the right track. Oh man am I looking forward to four days when I can just sleep…

If that doesn’t set me to rights, it’s back to the doctor for rounds of tests, because last time I felt this bad they decided I had CFS. Ugh. There’s something I don’t want to face again, mainly because I can’t afford to! Temp’s don’t get extended periods of sick pay unfortunately…